Wednesday, April 04, 2007

On Eagle's Wings

It's 11:00 am and Im tired. I have been working for the past one hour. Yes, one hour. Because I spent two hours and fifteen minutes commuting here. I spend the same aount of time on the road on the way home. On my first day here, we lost the way. On our second day, we also lost the way. Today, we knew the way but they had to block the road that brings us here. The King wanted to go shopping or something. I have also had a weird week. Several strange things have been happening in my life recently that are difficult to grasp. They're not all tragic, nor painful, but only difficult to rationalize. Some people live in denial to maintain thier sanity. Others release the anger at work or take up go karting - whichever is more violent. I am one of the types that think.

Hence, I decided to read and meditate on way here. Then midway I started listening to my heart instead of my mind. My inner voice told me to listen to me, to get in touch with who I really am and what I really want. I decided to let go of the questions I had and the answers I wanted but didnt have. I surrendered to The Power that is greater than I am...and I listened. I was told to accept and believe for those who do shall never be ashamed.


Then I arrived. My legs were aching. My head hurt. I was feeling sick to my stomach. But a strange sense of strength carried me...on eagle's wings. I met an unpleasant woman who gave me a strange look as i entered the office. One of the curious guys here shocked me to my toes as I picked something off the printer with his squeaky but loud 'Good Morning (What are you doing, by the way?).' I had an unexpected meeting with a very very wary Chinese man who looked as cynical as Inspector Gadget. He asked the tea boy to bring his china cup (with its own little lid on it - looks like the mizo soup containers you get at sushi places) and then he left it untouched as if to set up a turf, lol) in our room. The meeting output made my task a little bit more complicated than it already was.

I drifted away in tought again. I had mixed feelings of joy and saddness. Then my cell phone beeped. It was a short message, only to say, "Trust in the Lord with all you heart and do not rely on your own understanding." (Proverbs 3). I think I need another ride...on eagle's wings.